January 10, 2010
January 16, 2010
Perhaps this fear is of my own making - a subconscious way to draw attention. When there’s no one watching, no one to complain to, no one to fuss over me then the fear seemed to almost naturally subside. I had only two choices facing me – choose to act or choose to back off. And in that moment of uncertainty, with one foot perched on the very first of the 1200 steps I decided to move forward because I felt compelled to make the most of the once-in-a-lifetime opportunity of being there - in that moment, in South Asia, in Sri Lanka, in Sigiriya, right there on the threshold of an ancient palace on a rock. Having come so far how could I not climb up and briefly go back in time and hope to relive a part of human history? Isn’t who we are today in so many ways shaped by human lives and minds and souls that have come before us?
Almost on top of the dizzyingly high rock the wind was so strong that it was already making me sway. I didn’t stay long and turned around and made my way back down the hundreds of steps and down to the car park. Going down the steps was even harder than the climb up. The clouds had begun to gather again in a darkening sky and the wind had begun to blow, and as soon as I sat in the car the heavens opened up and the rain came down in torrents. Just in time I thought. I’d like to believe that my journey this year was all about overcoming fears, hesitations and living out of my comfort zone, and the universe was making that possible for me.
The rain soon stopped and the sun appeared again making the green in nature glitter in the late afternoon light…
November 26, 2009
Pondicherry (or Puducherry as it is now called) is on the east coast of southern India, about three hours from Chennai. Not far from it is the coastline where the tsunami struck India. Puducherry is best known for Sri Aurobindo's Ashram. Sri Aurobindo was another of India's great spiritual philosophers. It’s amazing how much spirituality is present wherever I go in India. Every city or town has some spiritual significance. In Goa it was the centuries-old Church of St. Frances Xavier who lived about 500 years ago, and his embalmed body is still taken out for frequent viewing. In Allahabad it was the Sangam in the holy river Ganga. In Pondicherry it’s Auroville, the city that was created on the basis of Sri Aurobindo’s philosophy.
On the last day of the conference, exhausted after hours of presentations and power-points, I spent an afternoon just walking through parts of Pondicherry. Pondicherry, by the way, has the same jewel-toned houses that I saw in Goa – the same bright blues and pinks and purples and greens and yellows. Could be a coastal thing… Along with a couple of colleagues I visited the Aurobindo Ashram. It was serene and peaceful. In the Ashram bookstore I bought some books on Aurobindo’s philosophy of integral education. Then we walked through the French Quarter which uncannily resembled its namesake in New Orleans with intricately carved wrought-iron balconies, staircases and gates on the outside of most of the houses that stood along tree-lined cobbled streets. We visited the hand-made paper factory and saw the most beautiful paper being made, textured and colored. I bought some exquisite paper products, bookmarks and calendars. We then walked along the beach under the hot noonday sun, stopped by Gandhi’s statue on the promenade right off the waters of the Bay of Bengal, drank refreshing coconut water beside the old lighthouse, and ended up at a charming bistro for lunch where the three of us had cold beer, some fabulous shrimp and lobster, and a wonderful conversation. We sat there for three hours, and intoxicated by the beer, the seafood, the hot afternoon and the relaxed atmosphere of Pondicherry we pledged we would all meet again for lobster in Maine when we were back in the US. Exhausted we returned to the hotel to get ready for the special Thanksgiving dinner that night...